I Apologize. I apologize for not commenting, not answering your kind comments, not being here. And I just want to say: I had (and I have now) reasons. It may shock you. I honestly warn everybody. Don't get angry with me that I didn't tell you earlier. I had no time and no willing, sorry. Too much trouble today. Actually, what happened is that I was turned out of the house and - damn - I'll never go back to that hell myself. Living with my mother was like seeing an eternal nightmare. I tell you truth, I can swear. It was far from terrilble. It was nightmarish. I was sick and tired from being humiliated and beaten up and I suffered because I had no choice. But that moment came. I just don't have other choice. I won't come back (and now my mother wants me to come back because she needs someone to beat up, she even tried to make my uni teachers believe her tales about what a sick old woman is she and how she loves me and so on and that she never raised a hand on me and some of them - who values their career more than students' lives - believed that lie and now I have really big probems with place to live. I hope uni will - despite everything and with protection of people who trusts me - give me a place into the dormitory for the time of my study, just because I want to get a high education - a proper high education) even if would have no place to live (I hope that won't happen). Now I need to do well at the job. Wish me luck. They should see that I'm a good person and can work well.
And I lost NaNo. I could win. I really could. And I swear I will write my novel when some thing settle.

Actually, it is becoming harder and harder to comment all of those pics and journals... I almost feel how dA presses me. I can't find the solution... 761 deviations. 176 messages. I WANT to stay here and pay attention to others. I want to receive attention. But I want to live a life also. And even if I spend a lot of time in the net only the first 10-20 pics go with a deep reflection, as you know...
Can someone help me to solve this problem?
In addition, I decided to participate in NaNoWriMo, which means... yes, right you are - sleepless nights, thoughtful days, collapsed brains...
And also there is a joy I want to share with you - I got my FCE certificate! I didn't tell you, but I had FCE exam this summer and I've got an A! *is happy*
So... Good night, lucky ones, I have 500 words more to write today...

Xenia ♀
Comparatively rare given name, coined from the Greek vocabulary word xenia 'hospitality', a derivative of xenos 'stranger', 'foreigner'.

from Oxford Concise Dictionary of First Names ([link])

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Why did you join this site?
To comment MYST pics. XD

What does your username have to do with you? Is it a combination of your favorite things, or a character of yours?
Originally, this is a name of my character from the fic based on "Ace Lightning" series.

What is your current icon of?
Dolls which I guess looks like me. At least a bit.

How many watchers do you have and how many people are you currently watching?
27 and 41.

Do you have more than one account?
Yes. Another one contains photos of mine and my friend's semi-cosplay, little RPG. ^.^ I can give you a link if you wish to see them.

Name 3 of your favorite artists on DA.
I can name more than 30!

What deviant do you admire because of their personality?
All my friends here.

How many people on here do you actually know in reality? Post their avatars.


Do you comment, fave, or both?
Mostly comment, but if I fave I try to comment too!

What do you typically post on deviantart?
My drawings.

Do you participate in clubs or contests here on DA?
In !

What is your most popular deviation?
Yeesha? is the most favoured, but Y is for Yeesha is the most commented. Anyway, people love Yeesha.

What's your favorite submission in your favorites gallery?
All of them!

What are the things you wish you could draw better?
I wish my people and other objects were not so flat.

Are you a subscriber?
No.

How many hours a day do you spend on DA?
Two-three. Sometimes more. Sometimes less. Sometimes MUCH MORE!

Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?
I think, medium.

What is your favorite emoticon?


What is the most annoying thing people ask you?
I wish I was annoyed by people's attention. XD

What is the most annoying comment you get?
The same.

What inspires you?
Art, movies, photos, music, my friends...

Do you use any traditional media?
Of course.

Do you associate people online with their icons?
Sadly, I do.

Have you ever suggested a Daily Deviation?
No.

Everyone has considered leaving DA once or twice. Have you? Why?
Never. What for?

Tagged by dear ^.^

Rules: Answer each question, then tag 4 people.

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: Xenia (ok, yeah, that's my real name)
Birth Date: 29/12/1988
Hair Color: Errm... Dark brown?
Righty/Lefty: mainly Righty, but I can do lots of things with the left hand too

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
Your fear: that's it ->
Your dream of the perfect date: On Myst. ^.^ It would be PERFECT
Goal you'd like to achieve: To become a REAL CREATOR, surrounded by loving friends

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: I wanna sleep a bit more! Pleeeeease!!
Your bed time: 2:00 am if I really have nothing (or a lot) to do
Your most missed memory: It hurts when the one you love says he/she doesn't believe you anymore

LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or Group Dates: Wha-?
Adidas or Nike: I hate sport and everything connected with it
Chocolate or Vanilla: Can't decide...
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cofee

LAYER 5: DO YOU.
Cuss: Seldom, I hope
Take showers: Of course ^.^
Have a crush: It's easy, isn't it? Of course I do, but I don't name it like that
Like(d) school: Not really
Believe in yourself: Partially
Think you're a health freak: Dunno, really

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Gone to the mall: No
Been on stage: Errm... I feel myself like I'm on the stage every second of my life ^.^
Eaten sushi: No
Been hurt: A little
Dyed your hair: No

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.
Played a stripping game: Cards, yes, but, fortunately I was winning ^.^
Got beaten up: I guess
Changed who you were to fit in: I don't change much, but I hope I'm becoming better

LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
Age you're hoping to be married by: I'm not sure it'll happen
Number of kids you're planning on having: don't wanna

LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye color: Any
Best hair color: The same
Fat or fit: Thin ^.^
Looks or personality: Personality, no doubt
Fun or serious: BOTH!

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 MINUTE AGO: Watching cool MYST walkthrough on YouTube
1 HOUR AGO: Talking to my friend Ann
1 WEEK AGO: Doing... something
1 YEAR AGO: I was in a very bad mood for sure

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I FEEL: hope
I HATE: crowds, loneliness, boredom
I HIDE: nothing
I LOVE: being with ones I love, creating, admiring

What is a food that you'd hate to be allergic to?
PIZZA!

What colour was the last towel you used?
Yellow

Would you prefer to date someone taller, shorter, or the same height as you?
Taller

When was the last time your nose bled?
*tries to remember*

How old are you turning this year?
21 I'm old

What is your favourite thing to snack on while watching a movie?
Everything goes!

Swimming pool or hot tub?
I can't swim

What body part do you wash first in the shower?
Neck

Who would you allow to read your thoughts for one day?
My closest friends

Name your last reason for using a camera...
To save good moments

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
This chair XD

What are you excited about?
Abarat! (Of course I don't forget MYST)

Are you a happy person?
Who knows...

When was the last time you laughed really hard & why?
Half an hour ago, watching that funny walkthrough!

What are you wearing?
A T-shirt and pants if you mean now

What do you want?
Attention

Did you enjoy your weekend?
Not really

Do you regret anything you've done recently?
No

Is there anybody you wish you could see?
There are

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
Hmm... 1 of 1 I see often enough XD

Do you think you’ll be married in 10 years?
Can't know this

What makes you mad most about girls?
Any person can be highly annoying, why only girls?

Have you ever been given roses?
Yes, once. Rosy roses! Foolish me, I'm carrying the ribbon with me on my bag >.>

Do you even like getting flowers?
Any kind of attention is good

What's your favourite flower?
Lilies

Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now?
What kind of relationship?

Does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes?
Oh, YES!

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
No, only in the extreme situation I hope it won't happen

Can you be your complete self around the person you like?
Yes. But sometimes I have problems with it, when we don't understand each other *sigh*

Whose the first person you texted today?
Hmm?

Would you move to another state to be with the person you loved?
Maybe

What are you doing tomorrow?
Walking with Ann and when with Eugene if everything goes right

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Oh, yes... Some moments. I wish they lasted forever!

Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?
I don't think so

What's your favourite kind of ice cream?
Chocolate!

Do you like summer?
Better late spring

Do you fall for people easily?
For some people

Have you ever dated someone more than once?
Haven't dated at all. But I personally don't like this word. It sounds silly. Wait, maybe I was on a date once. With my friend's boyfriend. >.> He brought me flowers. Stop thinking what you're thinking! She insisted on it, not only he! I guess she was tired of him, but I didn't like that boy either.

Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
What the hell does it mean?

Do you have freckles?
Lot of ^.^ I'm sunny!

Do you sleep at night?
I do

Tags!

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The rules:

feature 2 pieces each from:

1. FOUR artists of your choosing
2. The person who tagged you.
3. TWO of the artists they chose.
4. Whoever who are tagging.


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Please take a few minutes to see the work of all these persons, they truely deserve it.
And it doesn't mean that the people who aren't featured here doesn't deserve attention too.

Stolen from Fae who had stolen the phrase from Johannes.